I recently shared a YouTube video on my personal Facebook page. It was the day Ricky & I were asked to share a piece of our journey with 25,000 people at the Fort Worth Convention center. I’ll tell you more about how this moment happened & all that stuff down the road. For now the reason I am mentioning this video is because my mother watched it.
We had shared about this moment with our families but, none of them had ever seen what was said on that stage until recently. It was filmed February 2013 so, it’s been almost 2yrs since. Yes, it took almost 2yrs for Ricky & I to even have the courage to watch it. I’m such a critic…. more on myself than anyone else. I knew if I watched it before now I would have beat myself up, “Why did I say that?” “Why didn’t I say that?” “I shouldn’t have said that” “My outfit is awful” “I have 8 chins” LOL– I may have still said that one (I’m 10 weeks pregnant in the video)
Ok point of this…
So, I share the video on my Facebook. My mom watched it. I wouldn’t have even known she had watched it if she wouldn’t have called me. SO she calls me today… & I’m thinking she’s calling to tell me about how my 4yr old sweet Blain got sent to the office… in PRE-K (another post for another day) I already knew about his misbehavior so I was ready to cut her off before she started. BUT her first words were,
“What are you doing?”
“Hanging curtains mom, what are you doing?”
“Well I just wanted to call & tell you how proud of you I am. I watched your video today & I am so proud of you. I’ve shared it with just about everyone I know”
Now to some this may seem like a pointless “no brainer” post but, to me…. this was one of the best days I’ve had in a very long time.
Spoken emotions haven’t ever been really big in my family. I have always known my family loves me, I have known they are proud of me… even when they don’t agree with me. But we were kind of just the family that was like. “I don’t have to say it, you know” Hearing my mom say those words, “I’m so proud of you” …my heart melted. I cried, couldn’t get a word out. Didn’t know what to say or even how I could say it. It meant more than she will ever know.
I learned a lot this summer about “seeking mans approval” & although this journey hasn’t been about getting anyones approval but the Lords it sure did make my heart happy to hear my mommy say those few words “I am proud of you” I’m thankful I have someone in my corner cheering me on. I ‘m thankful I have a mother that loves me… even when I am a brat. LOVE that motherly love & can appreciate it now having 3 of my own 🙂
She even went on to let me know she sees me as the CEO or something even bigger one day… LOL gotta love my momma!!
